Adopting a dog is so nerve-wracking! I mean, so far everything is going super smooth but I’ve been jittery all day today. Things haven’t exactly gone as I’ve planned lately so I feel like at any moment, its all going to be pulled out from under me.
So far, I’ve filled out the app (golden), had a phone interview (flawless), sent photos of our apartment (bright and shiny), and of my work too since she’ll be coming to work with me everyday. The adoption counselor still has to call our references (friends, vet, and landlord) and “cat-test” Ruby to make sure she doesn’t flip her shit around felines. She’s going to send us a few more photos too.
I wigged out a little bit earlier and e-mailed our counselor as to whether there are any other prospects - there are not, so that eased my neurosis slightly. I just want to go get her and snuggle her and start our brand new life together. My worst fear is that we’re gonna get a call that says, “nice try, retards. you are monumentally UN-qualified to be dog owners.” Ugggghhhh…fast forward puh-lease.
“When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.”—John Lennon (via gwenmccartney)
Why do we need all these various ways to get in touch with one another? I just want to disconnect, to unplug, to free myself. I don’t need to be “connected” to every person I’ve ever met. Friends come and go, you lose touch, you move on. But nowadays, with so many ways to keep in touch, you don’t really experience that ebb and flow of relationships. You are constantly in touch. You can view status updates, photo albums, pictures from a wedding you weren’t even invited to, a new baby who you’ll never meet. And while you’re busy keeping up with old “friends”, you’re missing out on the relationships and activities going on in your real life. We spend so much time looking for and grasping for connections that we miss out on the real, on the concrete. The things that will actually fulfill us.
“Now, the world can be an unfair place at times
But your lows will have their complement of highs
And if anyone should cheat you, take advantage of, or beat you
Raise your head and wear your wounds with pride.”—Yeasayer’s “Ambling Alp”